i really start to believe in fate more and more..
can u believe it?
i myself also really dunno
happy?
surprised?
sweet?
bitter?
the feeling is wierd.
but then i am really happy overall..
this week 'exam'
IS EXCEMPTED!
she passed me..
woo~~ woo~~
the date is 12 august 2007.
i will remember this date forever.
im happy really.
the 'exam' made me really so much stress sia.
and fear of that 'fail'
thank you. my dear.
我会好好的珍惜你. 我爱你.

written at 1:13 am

ahhh why like this sia.
it was so smooth one lo.
everything was so natural.
haiz.
now i feel so stressed up sia.
its like
she going to give me another chance 'retake' my 'exam' again.
then the result will be given..
-.-
haiz
whenever comes to this type of exam.
my stress lvl so high.
somemore this is my 'personality' exam
whenever see exam.
its just not natural lo.
i want to do my best.
but how to be myself sia
-.-
haiz.
then in exam, sure will want to find hint one mah...
everyone of her single actions will tell me whether my 'result' is positive or negative mah. -.-
like the last exam.
haiz, i tried doing my best.
but then still negative leh =x
cuz i just want to do my best.
and i still remember her pass is like 'just pass'?
its just not natural..
scary leh..
wasnt it okie one?
y end up like this ar?
i want score a distinction for this one sia.. not a C leh =x
sians lah, i know the result is most likely pass one mah.
since my 'coursework' is quite good rite? xD
but then, grrr.
haiz
my cooking test =x
going to cook pasta.
see test.
haiz, hopefully can make it...
want to cook with love.
is can one leh.
but cook with stress!
i very scared might turn out negatively wor =x
AHH! HELP HELP HELP! XD

somemore i scared got spoilers in between.
-.-
got 2 people coming along with the examiner leh.
how ar?
1 a guy 1 a girl
the guy i got so misunderstanding sia.
sure will affect my work leh =x
the girl -.-
on the other hand is the joker.
hahas =D
if jay is going together.
then will keep the girl shut =D
hahas.
but the guy =x
sians lah.
if the 2 people dun go.
then sure can make it bah?
then i wont be so stressed like last time.
but then better than the previous exam sia.
got so many around
1,2,3 PEOPLE AROUND SIA!
haiz
so scary.
got 1 extra -.-
doesnt make much difference also wor xD
haiz.
hope can discuss with the examiner for some help bah.
maybe call my friends come help me?
so i wont be so cham leh.

hehe.
good luck jia hao!

love you dear!~
dun be so strict to me on that day 'exam' hor XD

written at 2:11 am

getting better in my sickness xD
feel happy and good rite now.
no doubt i was really thinking too much le bah.
hmmmm. the mood is getting so much better.
except that my grandparents are really so irritating.
im sick yet they still call me do things.
why cant they buy food themselves sia.
still want force me to move out of the house when i am so tired to.
irritating leh =x
then also damn irritating.
1 fried kway teow must specially choose shop one meh.
wad that one too dry this one too wet.
lame lah!
then make me wait so long just to buy 1 packet of kway teow that is only freaking 2 dollars. =(
not say i not filial mah.
but there so smokey. imagine a sick person stand there so long.
body so shag yet need stand so long.
somemore so hard to breath in such a smokey place.
can die sia.
haiz..
hate this.
then my grandma more lo sou.
stop giving me suggestion please.
its just irritating.
so irritating.
me 18 yrs old not 3 yrs old.
stop telling me what to do what to eat.
i din ask for suggestion u keep saying when i dun feel like hearing those suggestions.
then end up u say i dun listen to her.
always like this one lo.
go home tired tired, then give so much suggestions and comments.
cannot let me alone keep quiet and rest one meh.
hahas.

the whole yesterday and today keep thinking.
wad type of girlfriend do i really want.
its just wierd thinking this.
but its worth a real thinking.
after seeing other people's relationship.
i feel hor
i hope i can have a girlfriend who is romantic sia.
always give me surprises while i give her surprises too.
its so nice and loving wor..
then she will always says she loves me like wad i usually do to her.
but then hor, i dunwan her to be so open sia.
as in being so close to her good friends.
aiya, basically its just like this mah.
if she treat her boyfriend more important than her other friends.
it will be good lo.
like go out dating, no other friends comes along.
only they 2 personal one.
if its me. friends vs girlfriend.
i sure still feel girlfriend more important lah..
then hor.
she must also be very devoted and caring lah
caring is very important sia.
thing about this ar.
like whenever i need her.
if she not caring, really sad sia. =(
how i wish she can spend more time with me than her friends lo.
then then!!
yes this one.
hahas
my girlfriend must not be too close to other guys lo.
seeing wei xiang like this.
they are close.
but then i feel its really still sensitive sia.
his friends anyhow touch her girl.
hold her hand can meh, girls dun mind but then guys are just sensitive lo.
its not nice please.
talk talk is okie okie mah.
but then touch touch.
please lah.
its just not nice.
then next is understanding..
must be understanding sia.
if not very hard leh.
like i say the chalet question.
if the girl does not understand that the guy is protecting her.
its very hard for the guy to feel secure lah.
orh i shall say.
if my girlfriend is going out with other guys, i must be there with her so at least i feel secure that i can protect her.
aiya.
easy to say.
like andrew and luan luan.
everyday so romantic so happy.
so close.
or i shall say i want a romantic relationship, a relationship that is serious and everlasting.
a relationship that makes me feel secure.
for at least i can feel her love.
feel the way i should feel.
get a real type of love.
everything can work out properly one.
a girl that always love.
not like awhile got feeling from her.
awhile no feel.
very cham one.
but then i only have 1 girl in mind..
love you lots and lots.
it will not fade.
really wont.
be my girlfriend

written at 7:03 pm

ahhh! i really cannot take it anymore!
我真的很爱你..
你难道还不懂我要的是什么吗?
我想要的真的不多..
只是想有你牵我的手,关心我,明白我..
让我感觉到你真的爱我..
让我们彼此有了更深厚的信任感..
你真的已经成为我的生命里无法缺少..
我很爱很爱你..
我很难受..
真的很难受..
因为我真的很想和你在一起..
如过有一天, 你对我说你爱我,愿意做我的女友..
我会毫不犹豫的对你说..
谢谢你,我爱你..
请不要离开我好吗?

feeling better now.
just dunno why.
maybe im sick thats why im emo?
y out of the sudden im thinking so much man =x
sometimes i feel wierd.
love is so beautiful, yet it can be so hurtful.
it went off.
i felt good.
but now its just so bad =x
ahhh please dun let me think so much.
no high expectations again from now on.
really no more.
being single should be good bah.

grrr see im emo again =x
really emo..
hate this alot..
希望明天会更好.
我爱你.
im trueful to u.
thats the final thing i can say.
devoted, caring, protective, understandable..
have i not done wad you want?
all 4 i have done.
naggy is not wad i want.
but nagging shows how concerned i am.
i care about u.
might frighten you if you read it.
but its real feelings.

written at 3:17 am

well...
today from a happy boy becum a sick boy again = (
kinda sians..
feel emo again = (
wanted to go drink with kc and gang.
paiseh leh, wanted to drink to make myself feel better.
but my whole body really not right.
really going fever le..
well..
today went to eat at marina south.
wanted to give geng wei and wei xiang a birthday surprise.
but ended up not really a surprise bah.
they guess also know le..
bought a cake for them.
wanted to hide it but they all see before we go eat =x
but still enjoyable sia.
hahas.
i feel paiseh.
me, being the organiser of this event.
all do nth.
-.-
all is kelvin help me do it.
thx hor.
dun suan me too much xD
cuz quite irritating k?
well.
went to put the cake into the fridge in superbowl with sarah.
-.-
sarah. i treat u as a friend.
i wont tell wei xiang wad u said.
but it really hurt if i am wei xiang.
guys really dun like that..
and hor.. dun recommend me other girls lah please.
really dun like any1 else.
cuz u know one lah..
btw, sorry.. i forgot to burn u the s.h.e concert too.
-.-
only remember to burn for her lah u know u know.. ^^
will burn for u de ^^
then we eat eat eat.
kena suan alot too -.-
well eat eat eat.
the more i ate.
the more sick i feel =x
hahas eat le..
then me and wei xiang go collect the cake.
sang birthday song and took some pics.
with kelvin or weixiang now.
not sure who -.-
hmmm..
then see weixiang and sarah so loving.
good sia.
=(
how i wish it will be me.
but it just wont bah.
hurtful heart when thinking about it.
yu long also got 1 girlfriend sia.
=x
sad lehs all so loving.
only that jia wen and her boyfriend.
this is the 1st time i see jia wen.
she is darn open sia.
i wonder her boyfriend must be suffering alot lehs=x
but this is the power of love bah.
can see her boyfriend not very happy but have to bear with the pain like me =(
but they still quite loving bah.
can see =x
after then wanted to go my house market there drink.
but then really so sick.
paiseh lehs guys.
really bad mood suddenly.
also dunno why.
maybe sick makes me bad mood bah.
thx for u guys concern.
really good to have u guys as my brothers.
kelvin and gang.. pls dun smoke too much...
and kin chung at kin chung.
you dun learn leh.
its not cool lah. they call u smoke is joking nia.
u take it too seriously.
then while going back.
mood gone even worst.
dunno why suddenly miss her so much =x
whole body is so painful now =x
hope she understands me bah =(
i really love you.
o.. thx for wearing the gift i gave u ^^
i really feel happy at least that thing is not being dump in 1 side.
though u might wear it casually bah.
but still thx =D
next time we go make it smaller so fit ur finger ^^
love you always.

written at 12:48 am

wahahaa. just came back home from ndp =D
haahs.
went out with her to eat sakae.
then taught her some chemistry -.-
she brought 3 books.
feel so bad for her. like quite heavy.
dun say i din offer to help her k?
she is a strong strong girl who said its light one =D
hehe
then went rite straight to marina.
but abit too early then we went to raffles city to walk walk for her cousin's birthday present.
then we walked to river island see see.
omg, the shirts so nice. then the chain!
wahaha all so nice.
and guess wad?
its darn cheap leh.
i thought the pricing will be like GAP.
hehe.
next trip will go there liaos.
hahas
so nice so nice.
i like that bead chain lo!
haha.
then we walk walk to see handphone.
hahas
i realise something.
dun laugh k..
LIFE SHOP CLOSED DOWN!
wahahaha. funny sia.
i remember the days i studied RSB.
on life shop..
someone take the shop like its so good.
PRESTIGE SHOP! lmao
hahas
prestige retailer till close down.
funny lah
this shows that lecturer calling us to learn from a 'closing down' retailer.
paiseh for saying that.
sorry if its an insult.
but it makes me feel i am right.
at least i did a right decision for not trusting a lecturer who is calling us to learn a wrong thing =D
hahas.
i believe i still have a business mind.
for at least.
heee.
paiseh hor.
if i say wrong thing. but its according to my feeling.
which this thing at least proof i am not wrong.

remember i said this before.
a business lecturer doesnt mean that whatever he teach will make you a successful businessman.
its just better i learn from business people who are already successful bah =D
prooven and they are the one i really respect =D.
just feel wad i wrote in the past shouldnt be wrong.
cuz its simply can be argued.
remember my mcseafood concept.
dun laugh.
but i am still persistent that it will simply still work k?
why cant a fastfood restaurant be like jumbo selling seafood...
its still F&B.
i just feel as long a F&B restaurant or cafe sells good stuff.
everyone will go one lo.
even macdonalds is a fast food restaurant, wad is targetted is to tap their own customer base into other source.
i just dun feel i am wrong.
paiseh irene chan.
but i just feel i have done no wrong in my comments.
laugh as much as u guys want.
but i can just say its nth wrong saying those stuff.
to you is wierd.
but to me is good idea.
and if its a good idea.
it is always workable if hardwork is put in =D

back to wad happened today =D
then we went to watch ndp lo.
SUPER HOT SIA!
haiz
sweat alot =x
lucky got tissue lehs.
-.- =D
and they gave a fan.
the akira fan.
got light come out.
hahas.
then today watch.
i only like a few part nia -.-
the part where by they show their vehicles.
got that helicraft.
si bei chio sia!
make me feel like playing bf2 =D
another part is the part part where by the parachutist jump down from the helicopter.
jump down 2 times leh.
so nice.
i want try sia, but i fear of height -.-
last part is confirm fireworks lah!'
so nice sia.
hahas
but too much red one le -.-
should have mixed mah =D
ahahas
then then finish le go funan mac.
but too many people so end up go to raffles city.
then eugene come find me =D
but end up din eat anything and then have to ps him...
hehe
then we took a long time to find cab.
haiz
call le also no cab come pick.
so pek chek one lo.
but still got 1 lah =D
haha.
then send her home.
love you <3
^^ thats about today lo.
so happy still...

written at 12:41 am

the time now is 9.44am...
my grandma woke me up so early haiz
then lesson only 1 hour.
11 am.
so meaning still got around 1 hour -.-
so bored man!
recently got my new comp.
dunno is regret or not sia.
now i seem to have a shortage of cash =x
must learn to save up again.
the comp gives me alot of problem sia.
haiz.
the tv tuner they give sucks sia.
cannot watch tv run if i open more than 3 clients of co -.-
den stupid sia.
they gave me a burnt sound card.
then the sound card is like embedded on the mother board.
then need change whole motherboard.
so heavy call me carry there.
almost died.
i think i am thinking of picking up some new sports sia.
instead of going gym twice every week and i think i am really not motivated to do cardio liaos.
so tiring.
rather enjoy play some sports.
and guess the chosen sport should be tennis.
it is so fun lah.
at first me and my friends din know just swing lightly to play the game. then we use so much strength. now really better liao. can do the right type of swerving.
=D
last week saturday had chalet, my grandma so irritating.
go there so early.
then hor nth to do. sit sit there waste time.
thought upstairs can sleep.
then sharon's friends in 1 room.
jentson's friends in 1 room.
then no room for me = (
then at night then korkor come.
then we chat chat lo.
1 topic i was wondering is.
being an employee or employer is better?
many will say employer.
seriously its hard to answer sia.
employer need to worry alot sia.
rate of turnover, employee's salary, this and that.
employee then earn lesser -.-
sians lah.
i dunwan think all these.

now my grandma nagging again.
so irritating, everytime come my room.
only say this and that.
hate her suggestion sia.
buying a cake for wei xiang and friends she also want to 'suggest' this and that
she is getting more irritating than usual liao
haiz.
everynight come home after work. still have to hear her nag.
cannot let me rest = (
my aunt's birthday, i say want buy her wine.
she kao bei say i should buy perfume.
sians lah then money so much.
then buy le.
i want give her tonite when my newphew's 1st yr old birthday.
she say like this too shun bian
want give present must give directly to her house.
lame lo.
old people thinking.
really sians.
think so much for nth.
sekali is my family gene sia.
she always make me think alot too -.-
recently got a question bothering me.
if ur girlfriend loves going chalet.
and then the people around her is like those damn open one.
and many guys likes ur girlfriend too.
and a friend told u this.
his friend was staying overnight.
with many guys and girls in the same room.
then in between of the night,
there is a guy playing his penis on the girl's body when the girl is sleeping.
the girl dunno anything.
then the girl became a victim of kena molested without knowing it.
after hearing this, what will u do if ur girlfriend wants to go a chalet with a bunch of open guys.
with girls of course.
but u r not going there with her.
u want her to be happy.
u dunwan her to get harmed.
wad can u do?
dun let her go will make her upset.
let her go u will worry more.

a friend gave me an answer by telling her to call you if this things happened.
but dun u think everything will be too late then?

i seem to sound over protective.
but its really like wierd man.
these things happening may end up alot of problems sia.

i sound like a father -.-
well but i guess ill just do wad my friend said too.
if it happens to me.
let her go do what she likes.
as long i dun feel betrayed =D
simply life is like this.

written at 9:44 am

Busy blogging nowadays. too much to do =x

this song is dedicated for her--~~
u know who u r bah. dun need me write ur name hor xD

i know u dun like wang fei
but then this song is really nice.
and its really for u =D



i love you.

written at 3:54 pm

wee~~
today ill be getting my new com.
so happy..
will be playing all the games i long to wait.
battlefield2142, battlefield2, winning eleven pc edition, dota all star!
wahahaha.
yay.
kenny! my shirt xD
hahas. later i go collect from u lahs.
will be wearing for tml's party leh.
mai siao siao.

exam coming soon, i feel the stress liao =x
need to study hard!
her N and prelims are coming in this 2 month also...
hope she can do well bah.
ill give my full moral support xD

then wont be going out with her much also le =x
going to study for next week CKT's lab -.-
i challenged my lecturer that ill do well sia.
hahas, he say i hopeless in oscilloscope =x
i just cant pick up with practical bah
but will study hard.

hmm, should i go badminton today?
=x
schedule abit tight -.-
aiya dun care liaos.

tml whole afternoon so free.
will chiong game whole day, then party at night.
then sunday study my maths -.-
havent take the paper.
wahahahs.

o ya.
next week going NDP.
=x
haahs. this is the 1st time i can go there watch live.
consider myself lucky?
my aunt simply loves me.
wahaha, thx to her xD
got 2 tickets.
hope she can go on that day as well.
maybe can cheer her up more
from those things happened.

please do this for me k?
http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/816163
i shall upload
the result on this blog in future. xD
question are abit hard i know.

http://dearanddar.blogspot.com/
and this blog.
please go read.
i want to puke when i read this sia.
the back ground =x
the guy.
waolaos.
he is bian tai ar?
=x
okie now study time.

sometimes i wonder.
If Love is About Giving In, Why Must There Be Conditions In Love?

written at 9:52 am

simple me
i just want happiness
money, love, and freedom keeps me happy~
loving a girl alot rite now
really love her
18 yrs old now
still 'single'
studying in TP
happy days xD



love py~
love money~
love to be loved~
love S.H.E~
love when i look good~
love when im not left out~



hates when she ignores me xD
hates when im being fooled so hard
hates people shoot me so badly
hates people who hates me
hates people who dispise people of different class
hates the fact i think alot
hates when i cannot control myself not to worry


have her to be with my life 4ever~
a car
a house
a family
a new bag
a new sunglass
a new handphone
a new com
a new room
wish i can stay happily 4ever. thats wad i want most